Monday, March 4, 2013
A bit of baby sadness
I've obviously known this whole time that my family will not be here when the baby is born. They just live too far away to make it here in time. I think that this realization is just now starting to really settle in though. Noah was born in Germany far far away from our families. That was different somehow. I guess because I had an amazing support system there. I had great friends who also just had babies and knew exactly what I was about to go through. Girls who laughed and cried through all of it with me. I think I was so wrapped up in the excitement of it all that the fact that my family would miss that amazing day didn't really register with me. I was sad that they wouldn't be there but not as sad as I am this time. I just always assumed that after Joey was out of the military we would be living in Louisiana. I thought that any future children we had would be greeted by a waiting room full of grandmas, grandpas, aunts and uncles. That won't happen though. I know that although that day will be amazing in every way possible there will be a note of sadness. My heart will explode with love but a tiny portion will cry, "I wish my mom was here. I wish my dad was here. I wish my sister was here. I wish my brother was here."