Friday, November 22, 2013
The baby books. Not regular books. If you're a new mom and you have time to read regular books I'm so so so jealous of you. you should keep reading those... but put the baby books down.
I told myself I would NOT stick my nose in a baby book like I did with Noah. Of course what did I do? Buy the baby books. Read the baby books. Feel like a failure when Emily didn't act like the babies in the baby books.
I'm not saying never read one. They are great for advice or to use as a guideline. I'm saying don't expect YOUR baby to conform to the baby book rules. I'm saying don't beat yourself up about it. Everyday almost I would sit with the baby books each with their own solutions and ideas of what is right and wrong.
"This one says baby should be woken up promptly at 7am to start the day."
"This one says to let baby wake up on their own."
"This one says NO swing sleeping."
"This one says swing sleep is soothing to baby." - side note- Emily is is sleeping in her swing as I type....
I was stressing myself out because Emily didn't have a schedule. They say she should have a schedule! Why doesn't she conform to this schedule?!?
I put them away. I'm sure I'll turn to them when I REALLY need to but for now I don't want to look at them. For now I'm fine with Emily taking her morning nap in the swing. She naps the rest of the time in her crib. I can deal with that. I'm fine with our semi co sleep situation. She sleeps in her crib at night. She wakes up around 4am to eat and goes back in the crib. At 6:30 she's up again and I just tuck her into bed with me until it's time for Noah to get up for school.
She likes to be rocked and snuggled to sleep. All the books say this is a sleep crutch. I don't care. I bought a nice gliding chair which should arrive today because my arms and back are killing me from trying to rock her with just my body motion. I will rock her as long as I can (in the comfy chair lol). Before I know it she'll be too big for rocking.
She's well rested and happy so I no longer care if I'm not supposed to be doing some of the things I do.
When you leave the hospital someone should take your hand and say. "This won't be easy. There will be days and nights when you feel like you can't possibly handle this responsibility. You will get through it."
They should also hand you some dry shampoo and face cleansing wipes... they should put those in the going home bag you get with all the other free hospital goodies. They should tell you, "The books don't know everything. The doctor doesn't know everything. Your best friend doesn't know everything. That stranger in the diaper aisle of the grocery store giving you unwanted advice doesn't know everything. You don't know everything and that's okay. You will figure it out. You're a mom. That's just what you do."
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Feels like 12...? Cozy huh?
On Monday it went from this:
In just over an hour... I was not impressed. It's November! This is FALL! =(
Noah was thrilled though. I sent him to school yesterday and today in his snow gear.
We haven't even started cutting back all the dead plants. We started doing that around this time last year so I figured we had plenty of time to get it done. I'm sure the snow will melt BUT our weather will stay C-O-L-D. The idea of doing work in the yard while freezing my butt of is not appealing. Oh well.
Winter stay away! You're not welcome here =)
Friday, November 8, 2013
I do not have time:
to shower most days
to eat a full hot meal
to drink a cup of coffee that hasn't been reheated 4 times
to catch up on emails
to return phone calls
I do have time
for baby snuggles
for tiny hands wrapped around my fingers
to rock and soothe my crying baby
to hold her just a little longer before laying her down to sleep
for laughing at her funny facial expressions
to watch her sleep
to watch her grow and change everyday
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
I REALLY miss my blog =(
Someday I know I'll have time to get back to it on a more regular basis...
I feel a little like I'm living in a fog, kind of just moving through the day...and night.. Emily is a difficult baby. She is VERY fussy and cries a lot. I'm really hoping this passes quickly. When she is happy it's wonderful. When she's not it can be overwhelming. She makes the funniest faces. She's made a few baby cooing noises. It'll be fun when she starts making more sounds and really smiling =)
Noah had his last soccer game of the season. I'm VERY happy that it's over for now. It is way too cold to sit outside watching a soccer game right now. I am NOT ready for winter but it is certainly on it's way.
Emily hates baths. Really she hates being messed with in general lol. She is a very sensitive baby. After she takes her bath her hair is all curly and crazy. I still can't believe she has so much of it!
Emily LOVES her daddy. Like a LOT. When I can't calm her down he can...right away usually. I guess what they say is true...Mommy's boys and Daddy's girls lol.
My sister in law came to visit us over the weekend. Noah was very sad when she left. It was so nice to see her!
Emily is already growing so much! She weighed 9 lbs. at her one month checkup. I'm already putting away some of her clothes...some of it not even worn yet!
I've been feeling incredibly guilty lately about Noah =(
I don't have a lot of time to spend with him now and that makes me sad. I barely have time to go through his backpack and check that his homework was done the right way. I know it'll get better soon. I just wish it was better now. He made a comment last night that he needs more attention. That really broke my heart. I need to try to spend time with JUST him.
So for the most part I am tired. I am REALLY tired but I am happy. When Emily is having a crying fit I try to remind myself that babies aren't babies forever and someday I'll wish she was little again. It's already been 5 weeks! The time has gone by so fast....
Hopefully I'll be back soon. Hopefully I'll have more to blog about than being tired lol. If only I had time to read...