I think my mind completely blocked out how HARD the first few weeks after having a baby can be. Take the exhaustion, the trying to figure out what this little person wants, the insane after pregnancy hormones, the recovery... it can be overwhelming. Things are definitely getting better everyday. I'm a little less tired. I'm a little less stressed.
This pregnancy and recovery has been 10 times harder than it was with Noah. It's easy for me to say that Emily has pretty much ruined my body... seriously. After SEVERAL trips to the doctor thinking I had a stubborn won't go away no matter how many antibiotics you give me UTI I found out that during her delivery she actually crushed my urethra (that's where your pee comes out of...if you didn't know) I didn't even know that could happen! So now I feel like I have to pee all of the time. It's extremely annoying. My doctor said it should improve on it's on in a few weeks but if it doesn't I'll have to see a specialist. Apparently there are surgical options to repair this. Fun fun fun I tell you. I've been much more emotional this time around too. I think I'm finally done crying for no reason. Although when I look in the mirror and see the stretch marks all over my boobs I tear up a little... I told my sister the other day that I got a healthy adorable baby girl but I paid for it with my body lol.
At this moment Emily is happily napping in her pack and play we keep downstairs. Yesterday during a fit of crying I downloaded a womb app that plays, of course, womb sounds. I was instantly shocked by how much her crying time was shortened. Normally she wakes up, eats, cries for a while, goes to sleep, repeat... Thank you app!
Noah is SO in love with his little sister. We all are. It's funny that it's normal to stare at a baby and laugh when they poop and it would be VERY odd to do that to an adult. She is a hold me all the time baby. I'm searching for a good carrier. I purchased one yesterday and hated it. I'll be returning it today and getting a different one. My couch shall be my prison no longer! lol I love holding her...I'd just like to also be able to get a few things done around here.
She is growing too fast for me already. Her cheeks are so chunky and kissable. She makes the funniest faces. She is so snuggly and cute. AND now she's waking up =)
Hopefully I'll find time to sit at this computer again soon! =)
A crushed urethra?! Yikes, lady. Well, I hope THAT gets better quickly. I'm so sorry that this has been a hard time for you. I know all you want to do is relax and love on your sweet little baby, but all this other mess gets in the way. It will get better soon. You'll get into your new routine and life will return to normal. :)
ReplyDeleteI still have baby fever. You can't scare me away.
You poor thing, it must be really tough not only caring for a new born but being unwell and needing someone to care for you too! I hope you feel better soon and day by day it will get easier I promise :)
ReplyDeleteoh, I remember those newborn days all too well, she is so sweet! that hair! Hang in there mama, you're doing great!!
ReplyDeleteShe is SO cute!! But I would sure hope so after she crushed your urethra... at least make it worth it right?! Yikes, I hope that gets better quickly!
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